Thursday, March 11, 2010

life is a full of blessings...

Life is a full of blessings, you will know what will come, but it pays you to be always prepared and alert...

It's almost a month since i posted my last blog... and yet i'm still counting my blessings, blessing in financial, physical, emotional and yet spiritual.

Blessings... I believe that God is always with us that why we called Him as a Emmanuel, He is also a provider called as Jehovah Jirah...

Financial, im still counting with it coz even i am not with the red circle cycle of labor category, im still have enough financial money to sustain my personal needs, in line of my gimmick, shelter, clothing and specially food.

What else.... to be continued soon....

Saturday, February 13, 2010

Dear John,

Dear John, a movie that i was watch recently... i felt inlove and i've realized the importance of a father to his son....

i love it... i like it... and i recommend this movie to those people fall in love...

guys, i miss also THE JOHN of my life...

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

i miss my mother...


its not my attitude to show how much i love a person nor how much i care.. but after i have read a blog from "the green man diary" it only remind me of my late mother...

i really miss her so much....

although greenman already shared stories to me last monday night when we had our dinner at jollibee redemptorist, i cant help myself not to cry. actually thaat time we were sharing the said stories, a have a teary eyes which greenman notice and he tease me by saying.... uuuyyyy... naluluha cya. and now after i road his blog again i cry again... i really miss my mom, her presence, her advice even her embranced...

i had a regret in my life regarding taking care of my mom when she had an ill due to complication of diabeties... yap, she undergo in hemodialysis for almost a year that she suffer and almost everyday she gave me an advice that i need to take care of my self even my siblings....

mom, wherever you are right now, please guide me and help me to stand and to be strong like you when your around with me... please forgive me for those things i've done to you and to our family... you know how much i love you and you know how much i defend on you... i need you now... please be with me all the time....

mom, i love you no matter what... ur always special with me...

Monday, January 11, 2010

caution caution caution


Caution!!! Isang salita na nagkaroon ng maganda at nakakatawang pangyayari sa aking buahay kagabi...

After ng duty ko kahapon ay nagpahinga ako at nakatulog ng mahigit 2 oras at pagkagising ko, me mga text messeges ako sa cp ko at naalala kung itext ang mga kaibigan ko para kamustahin... after a simple converstion, nagkaroon kami ng conclusion na pumunta sa malate para magpamasahe sa isang kakaibang massage parlor na i know kaya pinupuntahan ay di lang dahil sa masaheng kanilang nararanasan kundi pati sa kakaibang pangyayaring ngaganap sa lugar na iyon.

By the way, after a couple of minute andun na mga friend ko sa malate at hinihintay ako kaya nagmadali akung sumakay ng taxi at pumunta doon kasi naka schedule kami sa massage ng 8pm... 5 kaming tropa na andun at nagkaroon kami ng relaxation ng mga oras na iyon dahil sa kanilang good massage at "ritual theraphy"... hehehehehe...

After our massage, we had our dinner at "SILYA" we ordered 4 tapa and 1 breaded chicken fillet... It's just a dinner by that time.

After a dinner, another conversation what is the next thing to do... drink at "o bar" or some where out there... Finally we decided to have a coffee at starbacks but no place in malate, also in robinson's manila that's why we decided to go to the mall of asia but instead to have a coffee... nauwi kami sa tender juicy hotdog at sa zagu....

Then the caution begins here... At the mall of asia may mga caution sign sa mga damuhan na ibig sabihin ay huwag lalampas o tatapakan ang mga damo na naroon or any meaning that has on it basta the word caution means CAUTION right????

D... step on beyond that caution during our picture taking thats why G shout the word CAUTION CAUTION CAUTION... 3 times and if you see his face nakakatuwa talaga at ang naging reaction namin that time ay hindi matakot kundi matawa sa ginawa ni G and regarding to D natakot naman cya ng konti kasi napatalon cya from that caution to out...

So... thats the story of the word CAUTION CAUTION CAUTION....

hahahahahahahaha....

Saturday, January 9, 2010

i miss....

ooohhhh... how would i start this??? huhuhuhu..... di ko alam pero parang may isang bagay, tao o pangyayari akong hinahanap o namimiss. Sa totoo lang parang this fast few days may mga di ako maintindihan, parang kulang at parang di kumpleto ang maghapon o ang araw ko. Pero kung pangyayari po ito di ko alam kung ito po ay ang pagkakabonding ng mga pusit, pagpapamasahe ko, paggala gala with the tropa, pagpunta sa school o pagpunta ng laguna. Kung tao naman, di ko rin masabi kung mga classmate ko sa school, tropa sa laguna, tropa sa batangas o si Mr. "C". Kung anu man iyon o sinu man iyon... basta ang alam ko namimiss ko ang ganun... Hay... anyway... for this day... i think i should be happy no matter what coz i know God is always there for me, for you and for everyone... Have a nice day ahead....

Thursday, January 7, 2010

lonely and cying like baby


Its was Jan. 4, when i started this blog and im so happy to announced to you that i've made it...

Jan. 5 when i visited school and have bonding with some pusit over there. I had a great day that day coz i saw Tita E., Tita A., Ate R., Doc A. and even some pusit like Ate E. Vice Ganda, my boyfriend, my long lost friend Ace, and lot more....

By that night, i am texting with "C" and we had a conversation about getting married but it ends up to negative result.
Jan. 6 when i decided to give "C" a break up text and i was suprise that he didnt say no instead he reply, if thats what you want i hope you gonna make happy with this decision. My whole day make lonely and sad coz i am bothered... in the evening, me and my friend meet up at the mall of asia to have a dinner after his gym schedule. Again, who didnt gonna make enjoy with the company of this guy, he is so funny meaning i enjoy the rest of the night with him walking around the mall and lastly he drop me off again here in my place.

Jan. 7 the whole day still the same like before, i woke early in the morning to take my medicine and start my routine for the day. i recieve a lot of text from "C" regarding our relationshiop but i didnt make any response even a simple hi for him... even i missed him so much but i need to stick in my decision.

January 7, the very lonely day, "C" again texted me and asking me to make any response to him but still i didnt make any action. i tried my best to focus myself to other things and im glad i did.

It was 5pm the same day, Jan. 8, when i recieved a text from him again saying that he is on his way going to my place and i became iritate with my paper work and cant consentrate on it but suprisingly he didnt appear here... i was so disappointed even thou i know that i didnt need to expect him anymore after i broke up with him. But around 8pm, my cellphone beep again and i saw a message "LABAS KA JAN, ANDITO AKO SA LABAS". So what are you going to expect me to do, of course i went out to check if he is truly over there and finally after so many days i saw "C" again.

I invited him to the office to talk one on one and have a good conversation with him ....

As what i expected, we discuss the everything, we started how we became a textmate, then became a friend, then became a mutual friend until we started our relationship as lovers.

And now, we are talking about our break up, i cried a lot, i feel sad, i feel bad, my fear comes along the way again for me to be asingle again but i need to do it.

I love you so much " C "
My friend "H" visit me again and he saw me crying like a baby that left by his mother alone...

I thank "H" for his support and adviced, i badly need it this time and it helps me a lot with this situation.

To "H"; I thank God that once in my life i found someone like you to be one of my friend or let me say one of my bestfriend or one of the best friend i had. Thanks for being true to me, through my ups and down your still the same... you make me smile even you know i am trying hard to do it but you still uplifting my ego... Thank you so much dear...

To "C", you are the first man and my first boyfriend i introduced with to my family. I love you so much and i prayed that someday you will found someone who deserve to your love. im so sorry for the hurt i've made. I also hope you understand my situation why i did this broke up with you. I love so much and lets meet halfway again soon... I LOVE YOU..... till next time ....

Sunday, January 3, 2010

new journey of life...


bagong buhay, bagong pag asa... sa kabila ng m,araming pangyayaring hindi inaasahan at sa kabila ng aking naranasan ako ay umaasa at naniniwala na maraming magagandang pangyayari sa aking na buhay na minsan ay hindi ko man lang napapansin o napapagpasalamatan.

kaya itong buhay na ito ay dapat alagaan at ingatan sa kadahilanang bawat sandali, oras, minuto at higit sa lahat bawat pangyayari sa aking sarili ay isang pagpapala na akin dapat pagkaingatan at isa alala habang ako ay nabubuhay pa at habang may buhay pa...

sa inyong lahat, ang aking masasabi ay ito ang bagong simula ng mag buong pag asa at paniniwala na kaya natin ito basta may positibong paniniwala at pananampalataya...